here is a link to Jesse Mc Cartney songs.. my latest fav song..

wow this week is Heaven

So many rest days, something that is so precious to me. Being working 5 1/2 days a week really take away all my time. Been waking up almost 7 am everyday is really tiring.. some more with all the commitments.

So i really happy this week, one, my project is not as straining and holidays are pouring in these two months, really looking forward for the Malacca trip that we are going as a group this saturday. It will be a two days one night thingy.. We will be going to Evonne's hometown and have a little family time there. Sure looking forward is the food yummy.

The first holiday was Deepavali.

The night before had a great time watching vcd with sha, H.L and adel. Just hanging out and watching Alfie.. though it was really not a very good show to watch.. i regret renting it.. *-* its off! Anyway please whoever.. if you guys are thinking of watching i advised you not. But still it was good to chill out with the girls..then they went to fetch Meh! lucky meh..such love for the brother.. i am so inspired by H.L she made three little cute sheeps that says"Wel" and "come" and "Meh".. so cute..hope meh is encourage.. such love ..wow..(so sweet)

Then we had mahjong from 1 am to 3am .. it was a very slow game cause adel keep winning and become the General.. wow she "cemo" so many time think ard four to five times.. ckck..so lucky ah..
well she won lar..

Then i had a chat with del till 5 am.. wahh first time really hanging out and not sleeping.. normally our spending time always ended up with movies.. but yesterday was good.. we get to chat and laughs at some people not gossip lar.. but i know we were a little mean yeah adel about the orange shirt and track pants huahua so funny..

tuesday..

tuesday was a very boring day for me.. with pratically nothing in mind to do.. its a very slakey time.. we were just hanging ard at Chelsea Lodge with chips and gluing our eyes on tv.. no nice show.. hey i tot its holidays? usually there will be some nice show.. only miss universe.. boring

Had devotional in the afternoon though.. its so nice of adel to join in and forsake her dota.. wow..so touch..sing till we really got no more energy.. its good though feeling a little more spiritual and in tunes.. then we decided to go Lings place to makan. Its at pasir panjang.. wow really crowded. and i said "hi" to ling. she was really busy.. i felt a lot for her.. she has to suffer so much in such a young age.. i am so encourage that she never seems to lose hope and keep being cheerful.. such awesome sister.. its really a rare gem. She is precious and i love her so much.. though felt like i have never been there for her as much as i should.. especially when i consider her one of my best friend..

sometimes i really find myself not there for my friends. Selfish i must say..

my definition of friendship..

Deep inside i know that i care and love my friends and will be there as much as i can to be there if anybody need a listening ear, though sometimes in a friendship there should not be expectation..like you have to be there always if not the friendship is not longer valid.. think sometimes we need to have an understanding heart and a generous one. not to expect another party to reciprocrate the way we thought they would.

Just like loving somebody, not to expect it be return to you. Without condition i must say. Sometimes by saying i love you will somebody really know that yes i care for you and our friendship is real or its just a casual loving greetings to one another without meaning.

I been always fear to love too much because of the final returns. Guess i myself have the expectation that it will return!..thats why i am always broken hearted in the end.. cos i expect..

Not be selfish and love everybody freely.

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love"

1 Corinthians 13:13