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Thursday, December 08, 2005
4:16 PM
What a Day!
Sometime assuming, jumping into conclusion and oversensitivity can really tear you down.
Without finding out the real truth, just go on assuming, just because you dont want to make extra effort to pursue the matter in the end it just make the matter (in this case my heart) worse than it already been.
Yesterday I was having a good day. And I told myself nothing…nothing will get on my nerve today. But it seems that the bad guy (He Who Shall Not Be Named) was playing fire with me. Just as I was feeling happy and all he put someone to destroy that moment of joy.
This was how I felt at that time
"...weh if you talk so soft how to hear? Dont want to spend time, how come? Are you avoiding me? I am not going to challenge you although you have missed a few appointments, why? am I so scary? Its just a simple dinner, oh busy... Busy with? weh talk ler? Busy with what?... I cant always be the one initiating rite?... I cant hear... too soft... oh ok lar never mind you go for your meeting"
and that is not over the phone.Its a one to one conversation barely 5cm away..
discourage...(hung my head real low)
So hard I tried...on the verge of crying there...
Ok I was impatient.I havent tried enough.
Had a talk with discipler till 2 am.
Heart a little mended. Kinda see a better picture.
"...give her time, be patient with her, love her"
Anyway I am feeling better now la... kinda resolve and try to initiate again so this week that person is busy. Next week lor... but next week got so many appointments... haha gonna be another siong week
Well a few things I learn:
- Need to be a little more tactful in the way I asked.
- Be patient.
- Be Loving
- Be understanding
- Dont jump into conclusion
- Dont let people weaknesses be the reason to affect our love for that person
- People can change, though it may takes time.
- Persevere.
- Patient in Affliction, Faithful in Prayer.
