Today i managed to get my life back on track. Its so tiring to be on a rollercoaster ride. I have been angry and frustrated those weeks. I dont treasured my friends,i dwelled in my own sorrow and self pity.

Those weeks were tough. Especially when God is not very near in sight. I have been focusing too much on my own feeling, emotion and life busyness. I didnt hear that soft whisper instead its my boss voice that had been ringing in my ear and haunt me in my sleep. Basically work was a total nightmare. I lost all my personal and social life. I lost my reason of living righteously and spiritually.

Why do we have to do all these? Constantly overcoming problems and emotions. I am tired with these battles for survival, i am tired for getting so much responsibility, so much problems in my life. Its true when we are poor there is less to worry, when we are simple, life is not as complicated.

But who am i to complain huh? I am but dust, i am but flower thats lives one day and wither the next. I do learn that problems is there, always, its whether we want to see it as problem or medicine that will help us to grow, cause no doubt problem is painful but at the end of the day we grow stronger.

I am forcing myself to believe in this. Everyday, that God sees me through.

Am i embracing God's plan for my life? I have to continue meditating that "God plan is to prosper us and not to harm us, to give us a future and a hope and this hope will not fail us"

How beautiful are your Words O Lord.

Help me to submit to your authority.

Trust. Obey. Rely.Hope

You never fail me.