I do struggles with insecurity.

Something happened yesterday, i met a friend of my friend(which she barely knew) that came to look for a job. Since she was a stranger, there were some doubts that i have about her. Eventhough she seems nice from the outside, i shall not elaborate further, you can ask me personally if you want to know.

What discourage me was the fact that she made a comment before we parted that night.It wasnt a direct comment but one would have known where her remarks were going to.

She said that the first time she met me (which was a couple of hours ago), i was not the way she expected me to be, tall and skinny. (Indeed the first time i saw her i could she see she was shocked to see me, i was wondering what was wrong with me?)Well i took that comment as neutral but she went on explaining that when she saw me; i am round and chubby, funny and reminded her of her cousin who always talk funnily (words that doesnt make sense to her and she find it funny)and she continued saying that its ok she likes humble and simple people and she won't judge by outward appearance.Doesnt mean pretty has good heart. <<- uhh well guess what? she already did! aghh..(i was a little mad in my heart)

Wow.. if she is my friend or good friend i wouldnt mind her comment in joking tone. But i just knew her and from the tone of her voice it was all serious. So i went home that night feeling very insecure, am i really that fat, funny(this one understand la), talk things that people cant seems to understand..ah i was really so insecure.. Maybe she is just the type of person who is very direct in her speech.

So i went home and told my sister all about it. And this morning i woke up to find a card, telling me how much she loves me for who i am and i should not be discourage of think too much about that comments. It really brighten up my day~~ and God kinda remind me of what Samuel told the people "The Lord doesnt look at the outward appearance like men do, but He looks at the heart" So i took comfort the fact that God treasures me for who i am, and besides i was created this way~ God's my artist, if i despised myself i am saying His art is lousy, so i humbly accept that comment but cause its not the issue of Salvation or character growth, i shall not take it personally.